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Looking back on 2012, I'm seeing the first three months of the year as a purge on negative factors in my life.

JANUARY TO MARCH - Kicked When I'm Down
In this period, I spiralled deeper into depression than I had done before.  I crossed the line on more than one occasion, and got to a point of no return in a number of situations.  I couldn't give a flying fuck for any of the things I have lost in that period.  I was a wreck, I was a shadow of my former self and I am convinced I was months off a complete mental breakdown.

SINCE APRIL - Gains and Regains
I've been on a journey since April.  Bit by bit, my confidence and well-being has returned to me, and I'm a far happier and contented person than I have been in the last two years.  My new job is a contributory factor to my happiness, I'm so much more content there, I'm not stressed to the hilt or negative.

One by one, I've reconnected with those most important to me.  It's taken time and effort, meeting in the middle and explaining the situation and making sense of it, but my true friends who know me well enough and care enough for me have hauled me back from the brink, and been happy to welcome me back.  This year alone has been an eye-opener in terms of knowing who my real friends are, and I'm grateful to each and everyone of them.  There's some I've fought hard to claw back from everything that's happened over the last two years, there's some who have just naturally moved forward as I have, and there's some who just don't want to know.

My attitude to life has changed so much so that I couldn't care less what certain people think.  So long as I have those who matter the most in my life, I'll always have the greatest prizes of all.

I end this year having got a new car, a new job, new prospects and new happiness.  Anything I've lost is immaterial, it doesn't matter.  I've gained and regained so much more.


Ryan H
United Kingdom
Current Residence: Glasgow, Scotland
Favourite genre of music: Indie
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Personal Quote: Live your life without regrets - always stand by your words and actions; always be strong and true.

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TaionaFan369 Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday! :iconchococakeplz:
Jettrainfan Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Happy Birthday!
Donaven951 Featured By Owner May 7, 2014
Hello. May I ask you a question?
ThomasAnime Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday, Ryan!Clap 
TaionaFan369 Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday! :iconchococakeplz:
captain89 Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Happy Birthday :-D
BoomSonic514 Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday!
atsf Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2013
Hello there Mister Ryan H, I have seen some of your work with the SIF, all audio redubs and that ERS narrations you did. and Quite Frankly I'm impressed you and collauges proved that everyones favorite blue tank engine isn't necessarily limited by age. as the french would say Bravo Ryan. thumbs up emote 
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